This story took place in 1984 during the summer Olympics. My girlfriend Sheri and I sat on my bed discussing Metaphysics. I had a Deja Vu. This feeling flowed into a second one, and then a third Deja Vu. At this point ‘reality’ was beginning to shift. Enough of me was still here to grab Sheri’s hand and say to her, “Something weird if happening, please don’t say anything for a while, and see if you can go with me.” The adventure had begun…
The Deja Vu feelings continued to come. They were different than most I had felt in the past. They had nothing to do with a past event that I was now remembering. They were happening as a means to elevate my consciousness. As the seventh one hit me I began to feel that always-welcome sensation of being in touch with the All. My consciousness was above my head, and in a very clear state. Then to my surprise, I found myself standing on stone stairs. This wasn’t my imagination, this felt real, yet different. I gazed down, and seemed to be high on a mountain range. There were clouds below my position. I looked up, and about six steps above I saw a cave entrance. A man dressed in white robes stepped out of the mouth and said to me, “Congratulations, today you made your quota.” At this I was thoroughly amazed. I seemed to know what he was talking about. Earlier in the day I had turned another person on to metaphysics. I had spent the last 16 years doing this at every opportunity. If something works for you, you try to share it. I replied to him, “But I’m so young”. To this he had no reply. I then asked if Shari could feel all that was going on and he said that she was not yet ready.
This teacher told me that I had to conquer all fears in order to hurry my evolution along, “Knowledge lies where fear is not”. We examined my greatest fear at the time, one of letting go control of myself. I was afraid to surrender to the All completely for fear of loosing my individuality. He said that I would soon have the opportunity to face this challenge. He gave me a moment to collect my thoughts. ‘Time’ is different ‘there’, and much was exchanged in a short while.
What happened next became a very big lesson in my life, one I use to this day. His next words were, “You may now come home, or stay.!!!” My thoughts came fast and furious. Did he really mean what I thought he meant? Go home? Die? I asked him what would Shari do if my body actually died. I had barely got that thought out, when in a flash I found myself back on my bed. The ‘vision’ was over. I had been dismissed, I had hesitated, I had doubted.
I WILL NEVER HESITATE AGAIN. This is the lesson I have learned. If ever you get an opportunity to gain wisdom, go for it! If you hesitate long enough to allow the left-brain to get into the picture and start analyzing the situation, the odds are you will chicken out. Higher reality has nothing to do with the analytical brain. It has everything to do with the intuition.
As he said within days I had the opportunity to test my newfound lessons and myself. I had lain down to take a nap and had just closed my eyes, when I saw ‘The Door of Fear’ in my minds eye. There is a place deep within all of us that we are afraid to enter because all the demons and fears we hold are within. I had often seen this portent of doom while meditating, but always ran from it. Now I had to change all that. Using the lessons just learned I didn’t hesitate; I just mentally closed my eyes and ran as fast as I could straight toward the door…..and jumped!
What I found behind the door of fear was the last thing that I had expected. I found God. The place where there is no difference between a question and its answer. I learned that it is the door itself that we fear. The door is a manifestation and representation of our imagination. So lets start imagining only positive things and perhaps such doors will dissipate. It may save you a jump.
I later had an opportunity to learn about surrender. While meditating one day an idea came to me. Why not try to mentally erase everything that has to do with myself. I began by ignoring anything that came to mind that had anything to do with my personality or my wishes. I found as the meditation went deeper that there was a new sense of individuality arising, something I had never experienced before. It proceeded quite naturally as if I had done this many times before. I found ‘myself’ racing over what looked like rolling mounds of deep velvety green at the altitude of one foot. A voice came to my ears and said, “You loose the self, but gain the Other”. Again I was in the place where any question I could muster was simultaneously matched with its answer. I questioned the Other for hours and heard many wonderful and unexpected things.. Ah but that’s another story.