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7th Deja Vu

coreywolfe — Wed, 18 Nov 2009 17:20:50 +0000

This story took place in 1984 during the summer Olympics. My girlfriend Sheri and I sat on my bed discussing Metaphysics. I had a Deja Vu. This feeling flowed into a second one, and then a third Deja Vu. At this point ‘reality’ was beginning to shift. Enough of me was still here to grab Sheri’s hand and say to her, “Something weird if happening, please don’t say anything for a while, and see if you can go with me.” The adventure had begun…

The Deja Vu feelings continued to come. They were different than most I had felt in the past. They had nothing to do with a past event that I was now remembering. They were happening as a means to elevate my consciousness. As the seventh one hit me I began to feel that always-welcome sensation of being in touch with the All. My consciousness was above my head, and in a very clear state. Then to my surprise, I found myself standing on stone stairs. This wasn’t my imagination, this felt real, yet different. I gazed down, and seemed to be high on a mountain range. There were clouds below my position. I looked up, and about six steps above I saw a cave entrance. A man dressed in white robes stepped out of the mouth and said to me, “Congratulations, today you made your quota.” At this I was thoroughly amazed. I seemed to know what he was talking about. Earlier in the day I had turned another person on to metaphysics. I had spent the last 16 years doing this at every opportunity. If something works for you, you try to share it. I replied to him, “But I’m so young”. To this he had no reply. I then asked if Shari could feel all that was going on and he said that she was not yet ready.

This teacher told me that I had to conquer all fears in order to hurry my evolution along, “Knowledge lies where fear is not”. We examined my greatest fear at the time, one of letting go control of myself. I was afraid to surrender to the All completely for fear of loosing my individuality. He said that I would soon have the opportunity to face this challenge. He gave me a moment to collect my thoughts. ‘Time’ is different ‘there’, and much was exchanged in a short while.

What happened next became a very big lesson in my life, one I use to this day. His next words were, “You may now come home, or stay.!!!” My thoughts came fast and furious. Did he really mean what I thought he meant? Go home? Die? I asked him what would Shari do if my body actually died. I had barely got that thought out, when in a flash I found myself back on my bed. The ‘vision’ was over. I had been dismissed, I had hesitated, I had doubted.

I WILL NEVER HESITATE AGAIN. This is the lesson I have learned. If ever you get an opportunity to gain wisdom, go for it! If you hesitate long enough to allow the left-brain to get into the picture and start analyzing the situation, the odds are you will chicken out. Higher reality has nothing to do with the analytical brain. It has everything to do with the intuition.

As he said within days I had the opportunity to test my newfound lessons and myself. I had lain down to take a nap and had just closed my eyes, when I saw ‘The Door of Fear’ in my minds eye. There is a place deep within all of us that we are afraid to enter because all the demons and fears we hold are within. I had often seen this portent of doom while meditating, but always ran from it. Now I had to change all that. Using the lessons just learned I didn’t hesitate; I just mentally closed my eyes and ran as fast as I could straight toward the door…..and jumped!

What I found behind the door of fear was the last thing that I had expected. I found God. The place where there is no difference between a question and its answer. I learned that it is the door itself that we fear. The door is a manifestation and representation of our imagination. So lets start imagining only positive things and perhaps such doors will dissipate. It may save you a jump.

I later had an opportunity to learn about surrender. While meditating one day an idea came to me. Why not try to mentally erase everything that has to do with myself. I began by ignoring anything that came to mind that had anything to do with my personality or my wishes. I found as the meditation went deeper that there was a new sense of individuality arising, something I had never experienced before. It proceeded quite naturally as if I had done this many times before. I found ‘myself’ racing over what looked like rolling mounds of deep velvety green at the altitude of one foot. A voice came to my ears and said, “You loose the self, but gain the Other”. Again I was in the place where any question I could muster was simultaneously matched with its answer. I questioned the Other for hours and heard many wonderful and unexpected things.. Ah but that’s another story.

God? Drives a Volkswagen

coreywolfe — Wed, 18 Nov 2009 17:15:09 +0000

In l972 I made two trips a week to see my guru/friend/teacher Alan. The trip took an average of forty minutes each way. This was going to be the strangest trip of my life.

On this particular evening I was bouncing up the San Diego freeway in my Volkswagen bug listening to my tape deck, when I noticed the volume had died down. I turned it up, but soon it faded to nothingness. This went on and on until the knob was at full volume, but still no sound escaped the speakers.

It was at that moment I felt a hand grasp my left shoulder. I froze, not knowing what to think. I quickly looked in the rear view mirror. Nothing. My heart was beating so hard I could feel it through my coat. Suddenly I heard a voice as plain as day say to me, “We’re going to show you what the other side is like”. I didn’t have time to think or argue about it, my consciousness was pulled quickly up through my crown chakra.

At the time this happened, I was 19 years old. I had been studying metaphysics, theosophy, etc.. for about five years at this point, so I was aware of other realms through astral traveling, and lucid dreaming. But nothing I had read prepared me for the feeling I was about to experience.

The next ten minutes were, up to that time in my life, the most wonderful ones I’d ever experienced. I was taken to and left in a place/vibration/state of consciousness that was truly indescribable, but I will try to convey what I felt. The first thing I noticed was the absence of any shadows, and an intense white light that seemed to have no source. I soon began to feel a tingle and then an expansion, until my consciousness literally included ALL. Any question I mentally asked, I received the answer, It was as though there was no delay, no difference between the asking and the answer, I had become both. I truly felt connected through love, to everything and everyone.

This was my second glimpse of how large the scale of ‘reality’ is, so the initial shock soon was gone. To us it appears to flow along an endless timeline. As our consciousness expands we realize there truly is no such thing as time. With every step into less dense vibrations, one’s reality encompasses more, and one’s sense of time coalesces into the eternal NOW. Since that day, I’ve come to learn that the NOW should be the main focal point of ones’ attention, because YOU ARE YOUR ATTENTION. If you’re focusing it on the NOW, it can encompass everything! Why limit yourself? It was many years later that I finally got around to studying Zen. They had it right all along.

I was left alone the whole time. I was allowed to get as much out of it as I could. Only our level of fear and imagination limits us, and at that time I had little of the former and a lot of the latter. Without sounding too egotistical, during that beautiful time I felt I knew what it must feel like to be GOD. Going back to my physical body was going to be a shock.

My stay in the ‘other side’ lasted ten minutes. I knew this because I (or someone else) had driven 10 miles on the freeway. When I re-entered my body it was a rude awakening. It seems my tape deck was not broken after all, and my music was blaring full blast. I had blown out my speakers and not even heard a thing! My guess is that ‘they’ had slowly changed my vibration to enable an easier transition.

After I hurriedly turned off the now broken stereo I realized my face was covered with tears of joy. I find it strange that though the consciousness was gone, the body still cried. The ‘feeling’ was still with me. A feeling of serenity and all knowledge. With the all knowingness came wisdom, a wisdom not to ever misuse the blessing. It simply wasn’t an option. I felt no vanity attached to all this. I was doing the work I was intended to do. I truly knew that everything was in the right place, doing what it had to do to grow and learn. There were no ‘good’ or ‘bad’ experiences, only experiences.

As I sat enjoying this feeling I began to notice small white streams of intense light emanating from every pore in my body. The streaks of light would shoot straight out, hit the interior of the car and bounce unendingly around the inside. It swelled very quickly, and within three seconds the whole car was enveloped in this pure white glow. The illumination was so bright I could see nothing, but something continued to drive to my friends’ house for me.

I was still in a blissful trance, as I walked to Alan’s’ door. The light was still spilling out, and hitting everything around me. When Alan swung open the door he yelled, “Oh my God, what happened to you?” Alan being very sensitive could see auras perfectly well. He said to hold on while he got his sunglasses.

I walked into his apartment, filled it with light, and sat down for my lesson. Whatever he may have taught me that evening has gone the way of most memories, but the ten minutes I saw what “the other side is like” remains forever a part of me. This feeling slowly diminished over the next three days, until only an essence of it remained. Since this time I have had many equally wonderful moments, but you never forget your first cosmic love.

Bigfoot

coreywolfe — Wed, 18 Nov 2009 17:10:19 +0000

1973 South island, New Zealand. My friend Rick and I are asleep in a tent in the middle of a fern forest. The ferns are so dense that you can’t see a white piece of paper in front of your face. I have a stomachache. I get up to relieve myself. I’m wearing only underwear and it’s cold. I’m leaning on a small sapling when suddenly my whole world is shattered by the sound of something huge smashing its way towards our camp. There are no other people within miles of us. We have a 22-caliber gun, but it’s in the tent. I can’t believe Rick hasn’t heard the sounds and come out blasting. I shudder in fear as I begin to hear it’s huge feet shake the forest floor as it enters our camp area. I’ve never felt so helpless before. The fear is so all encompassing that I can barely think. I then hear the low loud snorts begin. It begins to mess around with our backpacks. I hear zippers being undone. It dawns on me that it has to be pretty intelligent to do that. I know that there are no large mammals on New Zealand, except sheep. After about 2 minutes it moves off into the woods.

I hurry back into the tent and shake Rick over and over. He is dead to the world. Eventually I find sleep. I awake to Rick shaking me and nearly screaming “Corey, wake up damnit”. It seems he couldn’t wake me either.

“Bigfoot” we both scream at each other. His encounter was similar to mine, but there were 2 creatures and they crouched right next to the tent and snorted repeatedly right were our heads were. Rick was so scared he couldn’t even move. The gun was on his mind, but useless as his body wouldn’t respond. The creatures soon left and he drifted to sleep after trying to wake me.

The following morning we imagined ourselves the ones who would find and photograph them. I had a nice 35mm camera with me. We ate breakfast, loading up daypacks and took off in the direction they went. No footprints were to be seen as the forest floors are like sponges there.

About 2 hours later we stopped for lunch because we were both starving. It should have been around 11AM. I looked at my watch. It was 5PM. I can’t wait to find out what happened during those hours. We never saw a thing, at least consciously.

Corey Wolfe